Dear Aunt Harley....

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I know I did a really stupid thing. I wouldn't blame you at all for wanting to rip me limb from limb because of it. I got you in serious trouble, and I got Jokes SUPER pissed at me. For most, they would turn a blind eye to it, but he is family...and I betrayed family no matter his alignment.
You'll be happy to know I was able to regrow those leg things...I don't remember doing much of it to be honest. I guess they had me out cold for a week. But they're there. Just aren't strong enough to hold me up yet. Doc says a month at least before I can get out of this stupid chair. I'm lucky though....it could have been a lot worse...and I have you to thank.
I'm sorry Aunt Harles. I was a stupid kid trying to prove myself to the big dogs. And to be honest, they could have cared less. Seems I'm meant to be a teenager, and they won't worry about me until I turn to the dark side...if that ever happens...
I'll see if I can come visit you...if you want me too that is. I know that I really f**ked up with all of this. I don't think I could ever tell you how sorry I am for putting you in the position that I did. I'll never forgive myself if anything happens to you because of me...I know that there was a big risk on your part...and for that I can't thank you enough. I don't know that I would be writing you right now if you hadn't done it.
But so help me god Aunt Harles, if he lays a hand on you because of me, I'll figure out a way to rip him limb from limb. I know he has no love for me, he made that more then clear...but he will pay if he hurts you....

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I love you Aunt Harley. I'm proud to carry your name in some way. And I hope that one day, when I'm done making stupid and dangerous f**k ups, that I will make you proud. Make you glad to know that I'm your god daughter.

I'll come visit when I can. We'll just talk this time....I promise, I won't put you in danger again.

Love,
Charlie Quinn

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How are you my favorite aunt? You've probably been better. I can't imagine it's ever easy for you, being on the other side of the door. In the padded room, if you will. Maybe in a few years time, you'll be back to being the one helping the people instead of being the one helped.

I'm sorry. That was bitchy, and I'm sorry. I just miss you, and wish like hell you could somehow escape him. But I get it, we can't chose who we love.

It's not like I have any right to say anything myself on the matter. I'm in love with all three of my best friends, am so confused about someone else, and swooning for another. The last one feels like...a betrayal somehow. I've got a thing for the bird boy wonder, and it's...complicated. I think he understands that I can't just be with him. That my heart is pulled too many ways, but part of me knows he won't be ok with it for long. It's not like I'm sleeping with all of them, mind you. But Felicia is someone I cannot be ok with loosing, or giving up, or anything of that nature.

Anyway, it's also pretty...strange that he compares himself to the Hero of Hawaii as well. It bothers me. Makes me feel like there's pressure on what we have, when there doesn't need to be.

And I can't help but wondering, with all of that, whether I should just end it hear and now before there's heart ache on both sides, or let it play out and enjoy the ride.

Anywhozles.

I found out something that's really got me freaking. As mom won't be around, still being ridden by Pamela, I have to be the one to tell you, and I really don't want to. But odds are you'll see the paper with the article and be blind sided like I was, and I don't want that either.

I was...violated, before I came to Xavier's. I won't go into details, but let's just say my first time wasn't a happy one. Somehow, Pamela and dad found out. Pamela put the guy into a coma Aunt Har. Like, they don't think that he's going to come out of it. It's a total...mystery to me why she did it. And at the same time I know why. She loves me. Which is something I don't think I'll ever wrap my head around. Not when she was so convinced that there was something wrong with me and she had to fix me. Not when she continues to allow my mom to be at the back of her mind while she has control.

I'm flattered she did it, but I'm tired of waiting for this integration thing to work. I just want my mom back.

Anyway Aunt Har. I miss you bunches and love you tons. I know it probably won't happen, as now Jay doesn't trust me, but I would love to come for dinner again. As long as you think he won't kill me. I need one of my mothers while I deal with all of this.

Be safe Aunt Har.
Love,
Charlie Quinn